Dedicated to my daddy

I've always thought of birthdays as being a time where we can put away the 'pai seh-ness' to tell someone how much we appreciate them and that them coming into this world has made a difference in our lives. AND SO... It was my dad's birthday yesterday and El and i were fortunate to be able to see him and spend some time with him after so long . He sprained his back and it was hard for him to stand up after sitting and even walking up and down a long flight of stairs. I was never really close to my dad since young and it just reminded me of how i use to be so close and attached to my mum instead of him. I remember when there was once where we were still living in our condo in Old Klang road where apparently my mum and i were at home, and for some reason which i can't remember, my dad came to pick me up. Being so sticky to my mum, i didn't want to leave her and was making so much noise and tantrum. In the end he had to carry me in the cradle form and just walk away from our unit entrance. At that time i kept kicking and making so much noise. I guess now that I'm older, I've tried putting myself in his shoes and i was really overwhelmed with hurt and sadness. I guess that was what he felt at that time, seeing 'hey, my small girl (which was what my parents use to call me, considering El is the big girl) is resenting me so much'. Growing up, i use to think why i didn't have my dad by me, like how other kids did. Then i realized he was always there. Due to how it was with our family, he couldn't be there physically with me. But thinking back, he was always there when i needed him. When i was being bullied in Rawang El i think you'd know, he'd come to pick us up. When I couldn't finish my school homework, he'd just sit there and help me do my colouring and all. He'd try to talk to me and even just replying my messages even when he's overseas. Always working so hard to give us the very best and be there for us. Even when he couldn't, He'd make sure that there was someone who was, who could help us. Yeah, i think that on the way i've learnt that its the little little things that people do for us, which so often we can't see, that really matters. So dad, even though i don't think you'd read this, I just want to let you know that I really appreciate all that you do, I love you and really miss you. And I'm really proud to have you as my dad :)

Have a very blessed year ahead!

*Pictures of the birthday celebration can be seen from Ello's blog. The younger sis is trying to take advantage of the older one's hardworking spirit to upload them. Hehe...